Sep 5, 2013

Happy Birthday

For 6 September 1995 and 6 September 2013.
All of us got a story to tell.


Three weeks after I started my temporary job at AEON, I've wrote something about you here.


About how we met. First conversation we've had. How irritating you could be and how much I wanted to punch you and stab you with fork. Hahaha.
(boleh tengok kat post lama-lama aku dua bulan lepas dalam ni)


I don't know exactly why at the first moment I talked to you, it feels like I've known you for a long time.
Its like, you're the one I've been looking for so long.


:'(


You know what is the best thing you've got?
Appreciation.


You appreciate everything that I've told you.


All those motivational words.
All those books that I gave.
All those short moments we've worked together.


And how sometimes you make me see the best of me.
When I, myself unable to see it.


Because sometimes, all I see in me is darkness.
My vulnerability.
My scattered pieces of heart.
My dustiest past.


And when I looked at you, I see myself inside you.
And immediately, I don't want you to feel all those failure and darkness and loss of way.


I don't want to see you turn your life into a waste.


Sebab, aku pun pernah gagal sebelum aku nampak cahaya.


Gagal memilih.
Gagal kenal diri aku.
Gagal beza baik dan buruk.


Untuk aku jadi seperti ini, seperti hari ini, banyak yang aku dah korbankan.


Aku hari ini, bukan seperti yang sebelum ini. 
Tutup buku lama. Pandang depan.


But changing from bad to good is always wonderful.
Slowly. By the means of time.


Jadi aku yakin kau juga boleh jumpa cahaya :)


Sebab bila Dia dah bagi peluang, jangan kau siakan.
Jangan kau lupa masa susah yang pernah kau rasa.


Belajar, dik.


Belajar untuk kenal diri kau. 
Belajar untuk kawal fikiran kau.
Belajar untuk lihat apa yang terbaik untuk hidup kau.
Belajar untuk tak lupa siapa dan apa asal usul kau.
Belajar untuk ingat even buruk gelap pahit mana pun hidup kau ;
Sentiasa ada mereka yang sayangkan kau.


Along with your eighteen years of life, come back to our basic part of love.
Kembali pada Dia.


Slowly, but one step at a time.


Kenal Dia. Serah semua pada Dia.
Bila kau punya Dia, kau tak perlu hilang arah kalau semua kat dunia berpaling dari kau.


Cari Dia.


I might not be a good example for you, but I try to be there for you when you need someone to motivate and to encourage you.


But always, came back to Him.
Sebab aku takkan ada selamanya untuk kau.


Ingat, batu atau kayunya kau -
Aku tak pernah nampak itu sebagai satu kekurangan.


Setiap apa adanya dalam diri kau, hargai.
Baik buruk atau cacat celanya mata orang lain yang pandang.
Teruskan jadi diri sendiri.


Yang lebih baik.


Happy Birthday, for the one who always make me smile.


For the one who always told me that I'm beautiful.
For the one who always there to hear my stories.
For the one who see the best in me.
For the one who always laugh at me.
For the one who never underestimate me.
For the one who called me kakak.
For the one who always make me wanna kick you. Haha.


And for the one whom I love.


Happy Birthday, dik.
May Allah bless your life here and afterwards :)



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